I tried, I couldn’t sleep. I know I won’t be able to sleep tonight. I walked out into the terrace, the still night air wrapping me up like a shroud….. If death was bliss I would welcome it. No nemphetamine can rouse my spirits, no soothing voice nor a touch of warm hands, not a hug or a smile can make any difference……. I feel myself sinking into a deep abyss from where there is no return. The agony eats into me tearing my soul apart into pieces each moment, I am left bathed in blood, heaving, gasping, extending a solitary hand towards the heaven………
“God can you hear me?”
“Yes I am speaking to you god, can you hear me? Can you see me? Everybody says you make our destiny, so is this what you had in store for me?”
“God damn answer me, don’t remain quiet…. ANSWER….”
But He didn’t. In vain did I shout making my throat sore and throb; fruitlessly did I expect Him to nurse that wound of His child which she hides so well. He didn’t care. I guess He is a busy man…….. Nobody told me how long it takes for my voice to reach there……. But I sat there…. Staring at the star studded sky and waiting… waiting….. waiting……..
12 comments:
I think I know ,or at least am trying to understand the reasons for your depression.Well,I have said it all before,death and dreariness cannot be the answer to the myriad problems facing you everyday.....at least try to move on,and trust me eventhough it might not seem now,but you will find your semblance of peace and a hint of epiphany once again.
Ahemm... i think "Mr.S" is all you require.
Its tough to get over what you have been through!I have a question... "Whom were you shouting to??? which god??... the god tht we all know lives in heaven??? "...haha...There is nothing called God. It s we whu created them.The answer is inside you,not inside god. God has given you a brain,a heart,strength,reason and most inportant feelings,so that you can proove to urself that ur strong enough to get over the feeling inside your heart with a reaason using ur brain... think over it/// take care.
no point shoutin to God.you dunt even know if he exists.The belief of god is just like believing in an ufo...You never see it,but still people say that there are aliens!... neways,wrote too much.. my fingers are also sick :(...fever :D... take care!
well..if u ask me..after readin this post i feel that u r mentally upset or u cant forget sumthin in the past which has left a deep impression on u...
all i can say is every1 has, at some point of life or the other, such situations whr all ours hopes n dreams r disillusioned..bt thats nt the end of life..its just another passin phase....its not the end of life..its a journey..n u gotta forget ur past n go ahead..hope u do that..all d bst
hey guys thanx 4 all u sed....... @arijit i understand wut u mean bt really pathos is such a part of our life we cannot completely separate it.@ bhaskar. i dont need any "Mr S" @shreya.... i kno u understand.
Ek chaati marbo :P...
The next time you feel lonely and the sun does not shine on you...think of the desert...it waits for the rain all its life.
This is pretty good. makes sense. most of the other posts dont. read the coment on romeo and juliet
@nilatan. thanx 4 the compliment...... as 4 the other posts. its not meant 4 everybody 2 understand. i guess u r 1 of em.......
would go very well with an evanescence song...maybe "my last breath"!
@rajarshi. thanx..........
True.........vry true.......I can relate 2 da situation u were in vry well.........
I believe God is in each one of us.....He is our conscience.......
In life do remember 1 thing........no one is indispensable in our lives.....da pangs of separation r bound 2 pierce us.........but life moves on......sumtimes we r able 2 move along wid life.........nd it is durin dese few occasions(periods) dat we r actually happy.......so try nd move along wid life......nd den u ll always b Happy........
Although I say all dese things......I myself ve been unsuccessful in movin along nd acceptin life on quite a few occasions.......But I hope Lady Luck will b more lenient wid u.....
As it is evident frm ur nxt post dat u r quite happy wid da way thigs r shapin up 4 u........my heartfelt Congratulations on dat regard........nd hope u always remain dat way.
Cheers!
My original comment dint get posted.........no idea wy......
I can relate 2 da emotions u went thru..........
I believe.........God is our conscience......He is in each one of us........so we actually need 2 ask ourselves da questions.........
Remember one thing.......No one is indispensable in our lives.........da pangs of separation r bound 2 pierce us..........but dat is not da end of da world..........Life moves on nd we ve 2 move along wid it nd nly den can u b happy.........as u r now........my heartfelt Congratulations for ur newfound happiness.........Hope u always remain dat way.
Keep Rockin...............!
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